It is all like a dream...
What has happened this morning...early in the morning after midnight...it is all like a fantasy...
Actually nth about u has affected me...have alrdy made up my mind to forget...but...why muz u always come suddenly and make me change my mind...if this is gonna happen always...i rather go blind, go mute and go deaf...so that i will nv ever see u, speak to u or hear from u...i noe susu is gonna slap me...but thats what i m going through now...all this torturing...
I was very happy when talking to dine n ding on phone n u suddenly called...what does this mean man!!!...and for a moment i thought i was so honoured...until i noe the truth and thats all fools!!!
I would rather not be in love...not be in love with u...please can u make me hate u instead...
Zhen-- u r right, i shldnt like him...but i cant make myself to do it...
I rather take back my love for him n love myself...but it is all uncontrollable...
Thanks dine n ding for making me laugh or mayb onli smile for this whole day b4 i have to come back to this world n face the reality, the hurt!!!...
And for drinking with me...though the wine really taste sucking...(long island...it suck...dunno why i bought it in the first place)...but i really felt better when i drink it, mayb i m going abit nuts at that time but I felt so much better...
i m buried ten thousand feets under the fun n enjoyable world...i felt neither happy nor satisfied...all i have is hurts n sadness...mayb it will take some time for me to climb up...there will be alot of obstacles...i noe...what have i done wrong to deserve all this...is this what i have to pay, for the past?...or mayb the preview life?...
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