For a moment I thought i have lost 5 most important friends plus the him in my life. And my only last one left went overseas...
Initially, it was my problem in expressing myself or rather to say it fast enough so the attention won't dies off. Then I realized I became a mute in front of them most of the times. And now I am the one that makes everyone pissed... When i excused myself to the restroom, I knew what you all were discussing, or rather I feel like I should let you all vent it out before I come back to the table again. I am sorry girls, to have make it such a big thing now, but I am just different. Now I am a mute in front of you, I cant imagine how I will be like when all your other friends come together. I know i was at fault, I am the troublesome one, but is there a need to tell someone whom I have no idea who he is about what happen???
Then after feeling all this, I finally came back to my comfort zone... And you kept quiet and insist that you are not angry. I didnt expect you to understand me. I feel guilty, very guilty...
I have no idea who I should turn to. This is so fucking childish. I am so FUCK UP!
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